Recently, with all the changes and adversities this life brings to me and my family, it seems that all these things brings toll to my mind as well.

I am still not sure but I feel that I have so much things that I am worried about. I read a book entitled, "How to stop worrying and Start Living" by Dale Carnegie. In there, Dale said that in order to stop worrying, live life in a day-tight compartment. Free yourself from any worries by just living each day not thinking of the tomorrow and the past.

I'm trying to do just that but it seems that it is not working. I am still thinking where would I get the things that I needed to provide for my family. I am always thinking these things and I couldn't stop. This wakes me up in the middle of the night lately and I am getting afraid that I could get crazy.

Worry, as they say, can bring toll to one's health. And I'm afraid of it. What will I do?

I feel that right now I am just holding it in. I am afraid that when the time comes I could get snapped and loose reality. I need to do something.

It's 6:00 am. My phone sound off as I set the alarm to wake me up early. I woke up energized. Ready to take another day at work.

It took me 45 minutes to prepare and be ready for work. My wife and the kids are also ready for work and school. We are at the dining table preparing to eat breakfast before going outside.

Xhiarylle, my daughter, asked me if she could bring her classmates at the house after school to play. I said yes, of course, so I also asked her yaya to prepare some snacks when Xhiarylle arrives from school.

Xhiandrei, as always, keeps on eating his meal and is also excited to go to school because he promised his friend to show one of his toy car collection. He's quite fond of different automobiles, designed and built through the years. He's eager to save up for that one missing car that he is looking for which, at last, he saw in a mall last weekend.

It's 7:30 am and everyone is done. I got my keys to our new car. It was our first car and everyone is excited as we drive on a slightly wet road. It was a foggy morning.

First stop is the school. We stopped by the gate as one of their teacher is standing by the gate ready to get inside as well. Xhiarylle and Xhiandrei gave us their kisses as they went down the car and went inside the school.

Next stop - Gie's office. It's her last week at work as she'll be taking a maternity leave. She only have 2 months more so she needs to endorse her work. There's a lot of things she needed to do. Besides she just became the finance manager of a call center.

I dropped her off on the building's entrance. She gave me a kiss and got off from the car. I wave back at her and went to work.

As I approach our company's main gate, I stopped by near the security personnel as part of the security procedures. "Sir, kayo pala, good morning po!", the guard said. "O, mang-Jerry kamusta? Good morning din", I replied. I remembered his name even though I just met him last night in one of the standard inspections. "Kamusta si misis at mga bata?", I added as I recalled our chat about him and his family. "Okay lang naman po", he replied with a smile and signaled me that I can proceed.

I parked the car and proceeded to my office. It's about 5-minute walk from the lobby to where my office resides. As I walk through the spine, I see some familiar faces along the way. They greeted me and I greeted back. Some jokes around and we were all laughing.

I continued to walk towards my office with a smile in my face. People greets sincerely giving good mornings and hi fives. Of course, I responded back with their first names and with a smile.

Work equates play at the office. I don't feel stressed. I love to work and I am happy with my job. It was a great feeling. I sat down to my chair, brought out my laptop, placed it down near the sign where it says "Manager" and started working with a smile in my face.

Every now and then, when I meet new people they usually think that I am single. Probably because I look young to be married? Or probably I don't wear any wedding ring? Well...yeah...but I guess that would be for another story.

Anyway, when they learn that I am already married and with 2 kids (and soon to be 3), they sometimes do get surprised. One classmate from highschool told me when we met one day: "Talaga? Ayos! Mukhang maaga kang nadale ka ah. Mag-iingat na ako. Natuto ako sa iyo eh haha!"

Well, he's kind of right about one thing. Yes, I got married early. I am 24 at the time. Then months after, my eldest was born. It was a big change for me. I would be lying if I say that it was smooth sailing after that.

It was hard but it was my defining moment. "Tatay na ako!", sabi ko. I already have kids of my own. And they will be a priority.

It's a very wet Sunday afternoon and I have to go to work just for me to be able to open my laptop.

It's too late when I found out that our work laptop uses different domain connection and I changed it. Our's uses a different domain and my home network is using the default domain.

Yeah, it's a pain thing but I need to have my laptop opened. I got a presentation to complete.

Iiishhh!