I grew up in a family where favoritism exists (or probably felt prevalently). I always think that my sister is the favorite one. I was always the one who are at fault. The one that couldn't deliver, couldn't do well in school, couldn't be proud of. "Ikaw ang panganay kaya dapat mas alam mo!", words I always hear whenever my sister gets in an accident.

I am not sure why. Because in my eyes, I tried my very best to be my parent's apple of the eye but always fails. Yes, I admit that there are times that my parents give me what I wanted. Huh, well if I think about it, there are two things that I could remember. First is when they bought me my first bike. And second is when they decided to buy me my first pc. Big things I guess but after that no more.

I never went to a dentist when I was a kid. My sister did. My money going to school is 60 pesos until 4th year highschool. My sister got 100 on her 2nd year.

I got a lot of spanks whenever my sister gets into trouble. In an instance, I even felt that I was not the real child.

All these led to not being close to my sister. Hate to her grew. She gets everything she wants. This is the reason why sometimes, I'd rather live alone rather than living with her. This is also one of the reason why I married early.

Now that I have my own family to tend to. My own kids to mold. I try my very best to treat my kids equally. If I bought things for one, I'll buy things for the other. I let them feel that they are equal. No favorites. I love them both.

And hopefully I am doing a good job.